Jalsa , Mumbai Feb 6/7 , 2012 Mon/ Tue 3 : 41 am
Tears have a mind of their own .. they flow independently … oblivious of circumstances, place, situation and condition … they surprise the bearer too …
I am the bearer and keeper of many situations and conditions .. the flow from mine eyes, involuntary though they be, are beyond control. A dilemma always precedes such condition. Should one succumb to the moment and feel embarrassed … should the process be controlled without allowing the face to give away this predicament .. should one allow external access to it, those whose presence or that chord that causes it, and be made known to the other, if there is one .. in solitude and solitary conditions the task is simpler, effusive and unabashed. Perhaps it may be the best situation, perhaps not. But entertaining company, irrespective of the value that they may bring for that moment, could be at times not pleasant at all. On other times they assist in provoking the flow to be intense and free – a condition one may not entirely disagree with. Conditioning emotion has been known to damage internally. But tears have mostly conveyed a certain weakness within. Some that know of it, learn to fight it, and fight it well. Those that do not, cope with it irrespective. Our reasons and situations may vary, but the end result never fails in conveying, that no matter what you are or where and what color your skin may be, the color and presence of the tear conveys the same emotion for all. Which is why it is universal.
I have been warned today to make exception and not post long, for it takes away time from the night. May it be known then that the attraction of being here with my Ef, is far greater than that lifeless pillow and mattress and duvet that awaits occupation.
It is an attraction that generates attitude, beyond what may be termed as normal. But whenever did I say that I was normal, or that which I did was. In that respect then, all that connect with me, shall always be cherished and loved ..
Good night … and do dwell in the presence of the rising sun which shall soon represent the beginning of another day in a couple of hours ..
My love to all as always …