Ekant Sangeet the music of solitude of being alone, singular BigB

Ekant     May 23 ,  2011   Mon  11 : 00 PM

Ekant Sangeet … the music of solitude … of being alone, singular or a certain quietude, away from all other, left to oneself, discarded, forgotten and removed … into oblivion !!

Many wish it for themselves. Many wish it for you.

Those that are ‘themselves’ perhaps will it so, from circumstance desire and deliberate. Those that ‘wish’ it, do it with hate and vengeance, of retaliate and envy .. a dash of jealousy, zealous with intent, the presence of your eminence of some harm to them. They that fall into such a morass depict despicable nature. They fall each day into an abyss, deep and unable to extricate themselves from it. They shall never be able to breathe their swim to the top into a fresh air. They know they shall breathe, but instead fill their lungs with the acqua of devastation and death. That is scary. Scary for them. They have seen and perhaps know better what awaits them. They repent not for they know repentance needs the hemispheric air. They are so deep within the tons of trillion tons that they shall not survive. Might as well then expound all the evil that they can. The heavens shall not revive them they know, let the devil then be proud of their evil. Someone of consolation !!!

But of them that wish it for themselves - the silence of purity, the beauty of nothing extreme except the vast coverage of the ethereal atmosphere, never dark, never oppressive, but bright and inviting, enveloping all that governs their existence ! A mind then that remains clear even on clouded realm. One that exudes tolerance, fortitude, forgiveness and understanding - they then are the chosen one. The one that shall bear the cross, hang in pain but be liberated from it for they rise and lift in deliverance. Their ascension shall never be questioned, or debated or doubted. Their ascent shall be driven by those that once threw the stones of despise and evil. That shall and will be their most acclaimed position, never to be argued, never to be wasted upon !!

These shall be in peace. Those other shall live in the depth of decrepit foul emission !

Glory then to us. Shame and insignificance to them, as they burn and rot in their own stew !!

‘Ekant Sangeet’ … the title of one of the 60 odd books that remained with my Father in his words. His solitude, his pain and his lonely life surrounded by misery and death for a large portion of his life. Until … the advent of a certain ‘tej’, that speed and brightness of spark, one that could enlighten environs with admirable optimism. One that gave him reason for ‘light everlasting and unconquerable’. Blessed and in awe ever !

I am but a reflection, mirrored in the supreme brightness of its shine. The mirror cracks and mists with impurity at times, but disturbs not the reflect, nor the image that remains seen. I must strive to remain in the mirrored image. To be of relevance to those that seek reflection and refraction. And for those that come after me, admonished they may be, doubted and unfairly judged, let them be with piece of mirror, for, the piece shall piece together the greatness of its fullness. This is not desire of Father and of the Son or of the Holy Ghost, it is but expected deemed ..

Amen !!

Amitabh Bachchan

Nothingness contributes to nothingness, they say BigB

‘Ekant’       May 22,  2011      Sun 11 : 56 PM

Nothingness contributes to nothingness, they say. I would tend to agree with this with some elements of hesitancy thrown in. Rest and relaxation could be in the realm of doing nothing except perhaps to come away from harsh work schedules. There may not be work in it, but the rest in recuperating the mind and body could be of immense benefit. If there are no dead lines to meet, no appointments to rush to, no time lines to be met, the exercise could well be quite rewarding. Other than taking in the fresh air, there really isn’t much to take in on such occasions. It would differ I should imagine if the person involved were to be finding rest and relaxation in his or her work itself. Then of course the reason for rest would have to be negated and forfeited. But other than this, it would be of interest to see how others reacted. Many during this time take up new and untouched ventures. Vocations that do not have any relevance to their immediate work. Its a brave attempt. An attempt I think that could in the long run enhance some aspect of their regular work. Which is an interesting way of looking at it. Working as an actor, but playing golf for example in that spare moment - competition, concentration, patience, correct choices in the iron - correct decisions on the project film ! Funny how everything gets interrelated ! Such magic ! Play a sport to win always, obsess labor plan. Do a movie and bring in those practices again. Fascinating ! I know many that approach either with similar sentiment and are cause for envy. But why. Each individual should have his or her game plan in a professional world. Most, in an individual professional world. This is our realm our job our life, it would need all that it needs to succeed and prosper. Why then disuade them from practicing what they need to practice, when they work for its enhancement.

There are friendships and associations and holding hands in various professions. Can we honestly say that they are above the consideration that they have been formed with ? Does it not cross our minds at some stage that an association would benefit a certain cause other than what the association is about ? Invite someone over for dinner, for who knows, tomorrow we may need him. Lets send him or her flowers and a card on the birthday or anniversary. They are important people !! And on …

At some stage of our lives we have all sat back and thought or executed such acts. Who to acknowledge, who to not. Who to hold hands over a meal and who not. And perpetually the thought ringing in our ears, good we came to know them, imagine what would have transpired if they had not been around. It is a harsh reality, but a reality all the same. Some where sometime it does cross our mind. It should not, but it does.

That is the positive behind such operation. There is the other too. Know someone, connect with him on an issue, seek his now understood reason for the relationship, and he says he cannot ! Genuinely can not. Does the relationship sour ? Man … I asked you a favor as a friend, you are my friend are you not, and you move away ? Never expected this of you, how could you ? And now when ever you meet or invite or consult, would it not have the strains of that flavor where there was the absence of the expected help. Just wondering and conjecturing !!

Of course this does not take anything away from those rare and genuine relationships that have through generations gone beyond expectation and hope and duty. They exist and prosper despite all else. They exist despite the oft repeated thought in our minds - ‘let me do this for him, after all I do owe him one, do I not’ . When do we forget that thought, ‘after all’…

A simple situation but one that lingers in my mind often …

So what does one do ? If you were to ask me, I would do, and do it without knowledge of the other. Or never attempt to display my presence, or talk on the subject. Favor done, forget it. My Father was surprised once when a friend of his returned his borrowed money to him after 25 years ! He never expected it but it came back. So he gave me wisdom again -

Never lend, and if you do, never expect it to be back !!

I hope the almighty shall never put me in a situation where I shall need to ask, or beg. Neither would I want to be in a situation where I am expected to give. But if there were to be a consensus on my attitude I would myself vote for giving rather than asking. And after giving I would honestly forget !!

Somewhere there is a beauty in the soul when this is done. Better a better soul than a calculating mind .. with so much beauty around do we really need to …

May the serenity and peace of the above be with you ever .. nature builds it we often destroy it .. maybe we should change the cycle ..

My love

Amitabh Bachchan

There is no bigger joy than sitting up in the late evening and sharing up the day with the extended family

‘Ekant’       May 21,  2011         Sat 11: 57 Pm

“The morning slides up upon the pane,

Fresh air through an open vane

The chill across the body warm,

No harm.

The sea it splashes hard and strong,

Beyond a point, there is no wrong

We stand and stare and stare and stare,

Nature so beauteous, can never be fair.

Take up the walk, take up the shore

Take up upon never ending and more.

A way side Inn, in sun and glare

Little seats about the pavement bare.

Much later then another walk

Vast bodies of rock, silent, no talk.

There is a silence about and above

This is not game for treasure trove. “

There is no bigger joy than sitting up in the late evening and sharing up the day with the extended family. The fear of not being able to do so was looming large through out the previous night and this morning. But the heavens helped, the skies broke away the dark and disillusioning clouds and connection exercised its vote in our favor !

A relief then … and greater than most people are able to understand. The thrill and excitement that has prevailed on the release of the ‘Bbuddah - hoga tera baap’ promo stood way behind in my thoughts when the net refused to answer to the various combinations that I continued to press to initiate just any indication of life on these fibre glass wires and cables ..

But the mood changed dramatically when quite by chance everything came to life and a whoop filled the air. We were back and how ! And no, that was not meant to steal from the promo of the film on release !!

How ever did we manage when we were unconnected, distant and out of sight and sound. How ??!

It is difficult to imagine. The personal mobile, that birthday warning, the reminders for work to be done, reactions instantly of activity undertaken and a host of other important notes, all at the palm of your hand and a reliance on them for life. Our new colorful and active brain ! Decorated by digits and screens and all kinds of apparatus needed to allow it to function at its utmost.

I had been concerned about Rajnikant and his illness. I had spoken to him a few days before coming away. He sounded frail and disturbed. His ever efficient wife, Latha ji was taking good care. I merely told him not to ignore whatever the doctors were saying and to listen to them. But media and its reporting machine through a vast blast of breakings, was making me anxious. So I connected again and was pleased to find that he was improving. The fans and well wishers , the incessant media around his house was beginning to give him no space to have a restful day in the house, hence the shift to hospital. I believe he is back home and nothing could give me greater pleasure.

But back to the promo and ‘Bbuddah’ .. when some stalwarts write in to say and give final analysis, its time to wonder what it is that we have done. A rethink follows and a desire to hope that all goes well at the time of release.

Your prayers are solicited fervently ..

Amitabh Bachchan

Amitabh on a 1600 cc motorbike

Amitabh Bachchan created a major commotion on the sets of Bbuddah when he arrived on his 1600 cc stylish motorbike. 

In this slick adventure, director Puri Jagannath has shown Amitabh as an angry old man. Mouthing popular dialogues from Deewar, Agneepath, Shahenshah. Bachchan is expected to bring the house down with this film. We are eagerly waiting this one. 

The location is causing me problems of communication BigB

SeaSandRockDessertSnow and ekant May  20 ,  2011   Fri  7 : 52 Pm

The location is causing me problems of communication … and I am livid ! I hate to be in a situation when connectivity deprives me of my most important moment of the day - my post to my EF ..!!

I have always tried to be at a place where at least if nothing else, my network works. That has not been adhered to when I got to where I got to and this is upsetting my mind and thinking.

Anyway .. we must live with it and find a way out .. and if there is no way out, you change. So if things do not improve, I shall move ..

The first look promo of the ‘Bbuddah - hoga tera baap’ trailer was released today on the Tv during the IPL game and I have been overwhelmed with the response that has come to me on twitter and the mobile here. This is just such a joy to find all the hard work paying off. I must first thank the  director Puri Jaganath for conceiving this idea for me and pushing me to do it, with a strong persuasive effort from Ram Gopal Varma, whose assistant director Puri had been. The entire team of people that have worked on the film need a warm applause from me and my thanks for working like a fine well strung unit. They have patient and composed and most efficient. Thank you all. Now the test for the audience starts … the film releases on the 1st of July and all our fingers and toes are crossed for its hopeful appreciation among the audiences !!

London was most rewarding and had its share of excitement and varied experiences. With the innovation and inauguration of the Bachchan Bol Vog in the UK and meeting all those that have developed and seen it function to perfection, I was exposed to an entire media entourage in their most generous and polite respectful manner. It was wonderful to see them all after a long time and to find them still interested in what I do and say.

Oxford in the middle of all this was such a rewarding visit. Would you not agree after this -

And that ladies and gentleman of the EF … is the Magna Carta ! The original, preserved and archived in the Bodlein Library at one of the many ornate and grand halls of the Oxford University. Been shown to me in a rare gesture of exclusivity, this is such an honor. A document that became the corner stone of the practice of law, of democracy and in many ways the formation and reference for the construction of several major Constitutions of country’s. Awesome !!

Along with this there were so many other such experiences that it would take me a while to not just describe them but, to understand and explain their importance in today’s world. You feel so dwarfed in the presence of such magnificent greatness, such vast knowledge that if circumstances permitted I would want to get back to University again. And as I say this I remember an incident that transpired between my parents and the first Vice President of the country, that great mind Dr Sarvapalli Radhakrishnan. In one of his private meetings with my Father and my Mother he had told her ” sell all your jewelry, but send your boys to Oxford or Cambridge ” !

And as I spent time with the many intellectuals at the University there was talk among them of the need and importance of preservation - even preservation in our own film Industry - of our films and scripts and songs and dialogues and procedures that went through in their making. How humbling to think that intellectuals out of another country, people of great eminence in the field of international education and knowledge, would even consider thinking or suggesting such procedures to us, when really it should be coming to us independently and within ourselves. Would there be any takers, any initiatives ?? I wonder and lament too !!

The winds turn cold .. the evening dark … and the silence haunting and daunting almost at once .. it comes to the stage when I must bear the unhappy thought of closing my conversation with you ..

The blue waters of the sea, the distinct outlines of the scattered islands below, lived in, housed and formed along the edges of vast fields of agricultural enterprise, the gentle white impressions of the surf among the waves that clash with their own counterparts, a few sparse clouds, a drone .. and ekant !!

Love to all ..

Amitabh Bachchan

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